Hey does anyone actually still follow this blog? simply curious
I think its time I formally deleted my blog. Its not healthy to check on and be jealous over things I have no control over. I want control over my life so Im going to do what I can to get out of my household so I can begin to get better. A lot of people helped me in the beginning when it was rough but Im so much more depressed now I dont think this is a healthy outlet. Not the tumblr community I was a part of, not the real life trans community, in the end I dont regret it. But I need to distance myself. Its not healthy to spend so much time thinking about one thing I can do nothing about anything. I have a poor family. Im basically broke now. Its hard but I need actual help not just screaming at a wall. I need to get on my feet so I can move out and get out of this toxic relationship with my mother. Good bye.
It shouldn’t make me depressed. But it really does…
I’m in New York.
Ppl: ok talk 2 u tomorrow I’m going to sleep
Me:ok! Good night!
My brain: SLEEP!?! WHAT’S THAT??
Me: and now I have no one to bother o_o
Well that was short lived.
I like my Url but I also don’t want to see so much Trans stuff on my dash maybe I need to follow more blogs
I can’t sleep. My insomnia hasn’t been this consistent and bad since middle school
My mom told me if I died none of my online friends would care. She’s so manipulative… she pretends she cares but she only cares about herself lmao. She judges people she doesn’t even know yet. She always says the worst about everything. All she ever does is say negative shit so damn I start to hate her for it too
I’m supposed to be on anti depressants. Ironically I’m so avoidant I haven’t filled my prescription or told my mother. What a life…